MOTHERHOOD RIGHT NOW....
I have been a MOTHER for 8 years and 10 months. I still remember every intricate detail of pregnancy, initiation... I mean childbirth, postpartum depression (dang did I just say that out loud) , nursing, potty training, teaching her how to read & numbers, and how to share. I remember the first day of kindergarten, tears and grieving with her after Big Daddy left, road trips singing Dora back and forth from Memphis to Atlanta. Now we are both learning Spanish, money and self care. Motherhood is a forever journey of memories and lessons both for the kids and mommies too. Motherhood now looks different for me than how it looked just a year or so ago. Amira is a little girl growing up into, hopefully, fingers crossed and pinky promises a loving, kind, intelligent little woman. All the while, I am growing with her and nurturing and teaching her.
There is a need for a safe space for mothers to openly dialogue about what we teach our daughters. I am a mother of a beautiful brown girl who is 8 years old. I don't fit into the space that is ever so tight in the blogging world as a mother of a toddler. I have an 8 year old, almost 9, who is about to hit puberty, thinks she's independent but can't even open ice cream by herself. She's a creative child being raised by a creative mother so we both require an insane amount of structure. If I shall be transparent, I am raising her by myself. Her dad is very present but physically we are in two different cities. So, I'm not a struggling single mother per se. I have a support system in him, my family and mommy friends. However, the day to day navigation, conversations, homework, make sure you put on deodorant, it's ok to like boys kinda thing is ME 25/8. So kinda single mommy but don't want that sash around me dress, ya know.
SO, MOTHERHOOD RIGHT NOW is consuming and challenging when I'm trying to get myself together as a woman and balancing my mother tiara. But by the grace of the divine God and myself, I have kept her alive, she tells me she loves me and I feel like most days I'm getting this thing alright. I feel like I've won an Oscar every time I hear "Awwww you are such a good mommy". Shoot, I need the validation sometimes. I need it. I need it. I need it. I mean the responsibility and the pressure of raising a little girl who is growing up to be a woman in this world is insane. Every decision you make, everything you teach her, everything you expose her too will determine the type of woman she is as someone else's future mother, future wife, or future BFF. Wooooooooh deep breath. It's too much!
Motherhood for me right now is probably the most critical of all years. Therefore, It's the perfect time I feel to share and begin this narrative that focuses on motherhood and the journey of raising a "tween". I'd love for this to be a beautiful space to share thoughts on womanhood, motherhood, and parenthood. We experience so many things together that I don't share here on the blog that I'd love to begin sharing.
WHAT ARE SOME TOPICS OF MOTHERHOOD AND PARENTING YOU'D LIKE FOR ME TO BEGIN WRITING ABOUT?